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post Sep 28 2007, 09:51 AM
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If I were to be allowed just one regret in my long life, it would be that I haven’t been an honourable man. That may surprise you, but I imagine it would surprise you more to know that it is an honest and heartfelt truth.

Everything started out so simply and without any guile. Much has been said about my humble beginnings. My early life in the army, that of an unspectacular Second Lieutenant who did the job that was in front of him and nothing more. Of my subsequent fledgling career as a journalist and all that stolidly written, workmanlike copy. What is all the louder for being unsaid is the bafflement at how someone whose ambition seemed limited to doing what he was told and doing it competently got to where he is. What you have to understand is that nothing was planned. I didn’t have any Caesar like machinations to get where I am. Things just happened.

I have a second surprise for you; those first few weeks were terrifying for me. Have you ever experienced the fear that comes from knowing you’ve done the wrong thing and are just waiting to be caught? I had the dread borne of knowing I’d done the right thing and only having my conscience to answer to. Although I suppose that realisation only hit me fully when I spoke to his wife.

I’m getting a little ahead of myself I suppose, but you’ll allow an old man his meandering thoughts, won’t you? The part that you all know about is the kidnap and the subsequent murder. That’s all a matter of public record, the Home Secretary kidnapped along with the hack interviewing him. The killing of all his bodyguards. The three days before anything was heard, and what was heard being far from what was expected. Trust me, if you’d heard what had really happened…but that’s what you’re here for, isn’t it? The last words of the Peacemaker. When I do move on to the next life, I expect Orwell to punch me squarely in the face for that title.

All I knew was that we were in van, we were hooded, and we were travelling at speed. Our captors spoke in harsh, barked commands in a language I recognised as Farsi. “Al-Qaeda!” was the blindingly obvious conclusion I had drawn, and I assumed the Home Sec would draw the same one. Then I heard his familiar voice calmly stating “All right Michael, I think we can drop that now.”

Then silence for a moment. There was a rustling noise, then “Ah, Christ that’s better! Okay, could you give me our status please Michael?”

My initial fears of terrorists allayed, I assumed I was taking part in some sort of exercise, a demonstration of the vulnerability of a senior minister with a view to building support for the current raft of security legislation that had caused rioting when first announced. And here was I, the tame and unimaginative hack to write the exclusive.

“What? Oh him. I wouldn’t worry about Christian names Michael; I rather doubt it will matter very much to him in a few days. Now come on, status report.” The smooth voiced politico voice was gradually faded to be replaced with that of a man dealing with his subordinates. The next voice to make itself heard was a deep Scots burr.

“Very well sir. The kidnap itself went exactly as planned. The grab has resulted in the deaths of your bodyguard, and 3 civilians were unfortunately caught in the crossfire. Our contacts in the Met have ensured that only the false information concerning our vehicle and whereabouts is acted on, and we’ve made sure the usual sources are already disseminating misinformation over the media and internet. Our ETA is 15 minutes. We need to get you made up and him beaten up before we start filming. If we keep on schedule, we’ll be out of their by 2pm and travel in a rented car to the safe house. We’ll keep you both out of sight for 2 days, wait for the media frenzy to build. Them we’ll release both video and body. Any questions sir?”

“No…no, thank you Michael. Very good. Now, as our friend here appears to have soiled himself, do you think we could do something about the smell?”

I didn’t know what was going on, but what I did know was not good news for me. I few (very very un-Islamic) voices started a groaning, mocking chorus.

- What fucking unit was this wanker in?
- To shit himself like that? Probably the marines Geordie!
- Yeah yeah, fuck off Rich. Well done, you’ve just won first prize in the Cleaning up the Shitty Journalist competition. We going to be working on him, and I don’t want shit sprayed around the place while we’re working.”

A cacophony of laughter almost obscured the litany of complaints from whomever Rich was. No one else said anything for the rest of the journey. I was left to myself, head in a hood and shit in my trousers. I didn’t think it was worthwhile offering that I’d been no more than a glorified clerk in the army. To be honest, I had other things on my mind.

When we arrived, I was stripped but for the hood. Cold water blasted my indignity clean before fists and feet inflicted in afresh. I still didn’t know who these people were and what they wanted, but they clearly enjoyed a good time at someone else’s expense; I was beaten so badly that I wished I could’ve died, then paraded in front of a camera in a room draped with black flags and golden Arabic script. This was the first time they’d even taken the hood off me, and the first time I saw any of my dark haired, olive skinned captors. When they took it off, a blurred figure in front of me spoke in that same Scots voice I had heard in the van.

“Jesus…Heh, you boys had fun then? Alright, can you speak son? CAN YOU SPEAK?”

A blow to the jaw followed. I tried to say something, a plea perhaps. My word came out as a slurred string of nonsense.

“Okay, let’s get started. We’ve got 10 minutes while that prick is still in makeup so let’s try to go for one take. Ready? On my mark…mark”

The brogue vanished in a flash leaving a screaming, ranting Farsi in it’s wake. I’ve no idea what was being said; I was broken and resigned to death by this point. I just wanted it all to end.

We must’ve got what was desired, because we did get it in one take according to an audibly satisfied Michael. The hood went back on, and a volley of punches and kicks drove me to the floor, with some more of the same to keep me there.

As I regained consciousness, I was aware of hearing the Home Sec’s scared but measured voice.

“…are serious. They wish me to tell you that the body that came with this message is the first of 2 if their…please. Please I have a wife, I have children! Please! I…okay okay, stop! Please just don’t hit me any more, I’m sorry!

If their demands are not met then there will be another body to follow the first. Be brave Sarah, and tell Ka…no, please let me say something to my wife!”

- It’s alright sir, the camera has stopped running
- Oh, righto. How was that?
- Yeah, that was good. The makeup looks excellent. You’d think you’d got the worst of the beating.

These two voices chuckled at that, just two people sharing a joke. I’m not sure why, but that’s what set off the fuse in my mind. “You’re going to die, and it’s just a joke.” That was the first thought.

I was picked up and dumped in a van, hands still tied in front of me. After we arrived at our destination, I was taken indoors and down some stairs. My hood was taken off my head a second time and I was face to face with one of my captors. He put something down next to me, and stood to leave. “Call it a last drink mate” came the genial voice, and the door closed on me.

The room was small and windowless, bare of everything but walls, ceiling, floor and door. Next to me was a half-drunk bottle of Jack Daniels. It took me an hour to make out the label; I later found out that the beating had almost caused one of my retinas to detach.

The next few hours should have been a lonely hell made bearable by whisky. Instead, the fuse that a poor joke had lit began to burn away in my brain. They were going to kill me in the morning. I was a prop in a performance, nothing else. I didn’t matter. I was inconsequential. My only value in them lay as way of drawing attention to a fake message. I wanted to stay alive.

By the time the same man arrived in the morning to take me to my end, he looked into the room and saw an empty bottle and a glazed expression on my face. He came in the room and squatted down beside me.

It’s safe to say that he didn’t expect to find himself lying on the floor, groaning in surprise as his brain tried to process exactly how the semi-comatose drunk had managed to snatch the bottle from the floor and smash it into the side of his head in a single, sweeping motion. Had he the time to consider it, I’m sure he would have expected to find hand scrabbling at his holster to get his pistol. That time was cut short by an almost certainly unexpected click of the safety catch and the following explosion of the bullet through the back of his skull before it tore into the greyness that made him what he was.

I had heard people like them before when I was the glorified army clerk. Big boys with dangerous toys and letting the whole world what big, swinging dicks they are. They’d already relegated me to the status of body, and I will treasure the look of surprise on the faces of the two men who came bundling into the room as I shot them both.

I had no idea how many there were you know. I didn’t much care about anything at that point. I didn’t expect to escape, and I didn’t expect to live. I just wanted to make sure that I didn’t die a joke. Can you understand that? It wasn’t my military training, as some of the more entertaining conspiracy theorists have hinted at. And it wasn’t the desire to be the hero of the hour that the media painted it to be. I didn’t have a wife and children to get away to, and my parents were long dead. The only regret I had right then was that no-one would feed my cat Miette when I was gone. 3 of them were dead because they thought I was a joke, and I wanted to kill more until I stopped being funny.

One of them had a semi-automatic rifle, which relegated the pistol to getting tucked into the back of the green combat fatigues I’d been given to replace my brown crusted jeans.

There was no look of surprise on the man I encountered on leaving that room, simply a gunshot that was answered with 8 of my own. I stepped over the contorted, bloodied, and extravagantly dead man and continued to the foot of the stairs. It looked like I was being held in a cellar of some kind. I decided not to chance peering up through the trap door, preferring to let another 5 bullets precede me. A thump followed by a panicked shout and a door slamming seemed to confirm the wisdom in those bullets, so I pushed up and out. Michael’s vacant eyes greeted me.

That was the first thing that even gave me pause. It was perhaps just over a minute since I’d fired the first shot and 5 people were dead. Dead by my hand. I may sound regretful as I say that now, but at the time…at the time I had less compassion toward the men who’d placed me in that situation. And I’d heard a door slam, probably the one on the wall less than 10 feet away.

I stood for a moment longer, staring back into Michael’s dead eyes. The door flew open, and the minister burst into the room holding a gun in shaking hands whilst he stared at me with wild eyes.

His shots all went wild. Every one. The click-clicking of the empty gun went on for a long time before I spoke.

“Why?”

The impotent gun ceased it’s noise and dropped from his hands as he sank to his knees.

“Don’t kill me. Please don’t kill me! I’ve got a wife, I’ve got children I…”
As I advanced on him he cowered and received the rifle butt in his face for his trouble.

“WHY!?”

It was difficult to make out any coherent narrative in the whimpering and mewling that followed. And to be fair, I wasn’t in the best frame of mind to have what seemed a turgid little power-play explained to me. But I learned that the 5 men I had killed were ex army, all of whom had been employed by the Home Office whenever MI5 needed to be kept out of matters that might cause them any dismay. And I would guess that killing 5 British Muslims and storing their bodies in this safe house to be found when the crack 5 man military unit save the Home Sec and kill the 5 radicals who kidnapped him and killed the journalist with him would cause significant dismay.

What dismayed the Home Secretary was the amount of money he stood to lose if the Security legislation did not see the light of day. I’m afraid he wasn’t very clear on the specifics of that; he was babbling and crying a lot, and I’m happy to say that he’d shat himself too.

Then he started crying for his wife and children again so I shot him. I’ve always hated hypocrites.

We were in an isolated enough place that the gunshots caused no alarm. I was left in a house with 6 dead men for company. What started as an angry attempt to win back some dignity had ended in blood, tears, and freedom. And I now had to cope with the reality of what I’d just done.

From there, we enter the wonderful world of public record again. My heroic attempt to save the Home Sec from a rogue element of the Security Services who wanted to stoke the fear of the Islamic world for their own benefit became a very popular story for a while, and everyone wanted a piece of me.

But I was scared. There was no way that he could have planned this alone, without the knowledge of anyone in government. I was terrified of having an “accident”, though my paranoia was diagnosed and dismissed as post-traumatic stress.

When his wife came to see me, cameras blazing in the ward, I was practically hallucinating with the fear. I’d barely slept in days, and I didn’t know who was going to get me or how. Maybe she would be the one to kill me? Revenge for her husband? Stupid of course; she was a nice enough lady and gave no indication she’d ever had much interest in politics. But she must have adored her husband. The pain in her eyes as she asked me if her husband had suffered much at the hands of the Faked Five was…well, I don’t like to think too much about it. I didn’t answer her, and the nurses said I was too doped up. But I never made any effort to speak to her later. I couldn’t bear facing her and shattering her illusions or trying to maintain mine.

And so I got myself into politics. Keep your friends close and your enemies closer, right? There was enough goodwill toward me that getting elected wasn’t a problem. And you know all about how the cabinet at the time made good use of me as an example to get some of that Security legislation brought in to fanfare and cheers later on. I really didn’t care; the fuse was still burning; they’re going to kill you. You need to stay alive. And I did it by being their poster boy. They got what they wanted, and I got to smile for the cameras and help them get rich.

You know, I don’t know whether them naming the final Act after me when it became law was a stunt for the public or a joke on me. But I didn’t care. I was the Peacemaker, the man who brought about the laws that ensure security for the public.

Even after those laws bit them on the backside, even after the majority of that cabinet had been shot after show trials, and even after that new breed of bastards got on the scene, the ones that don’t even kid themselves about their greed, I’ve stayed sacrosanct as the Peacemaker. And more importantly, alive.

Now isn’t the best time to decide whether a noble death would have been better than this longevity at the price of liberty. But it’s death that’s coming for me soon, and I suppose I’ll find out afterwards whether it was worth it. But I hope that regret counts for something.









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post Sep 28 2007, 01:22 PM
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A little hard to follow some of it... I liked the parts with shooting and the violence. Could do for a bit of the old in-out in-out.


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post Sep 29 2007, 01:30 AM
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It was a little hard to follow but still a great story. Writing stories from the mind is difficult anyway.


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post Sep 29 2007, 08:32 AM
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Cheers CM; can I ask, what about it was hard to follow? The narrative, or the fact that it sort of went from him talking now to what was happening then etc?


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post Sep 29 2007, 08:49 AM
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I wasn't familiar with some of the wording but that is probably a cultural thing.


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post Sep 29 2007, 08:54 AM
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Mkay, thanks for that.


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post Sep 30 2007, 03:20 AM
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Where's my cheers? I said the same thing. He get's the cheers... Remember I'm Sam Malone? Enjoy those cheers- if you can- CM, because deep down you know you don't deserve them.


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post Sep 30 2007, 04:16 PM
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QUOTE(Light @ Sep 28 2007, 10:51 AM) *

If I were to be allowed just one regret in my long life


This is where I stopped reading. You couldn't be more trite if you started with "Call me Ishmael."
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247 stupid posts. Nothing to say worth saying. Fuck off and die Beezlefag.


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post Oct 1 2007, 04:03 AM
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Fuckin' A. Why don't you and Beezlebozo go make-out behind the monkey bars next recess. The tension is killing me.


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Good story. To be honest, I was a little confused at the beginning but it all became clear soon enough.

Read a few of your storys... its definately something you should pursue
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I know, he should be a stripper too because I want to fuck him. He's a little sex whore.


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post Oct 3 2007, 10:46 AM
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QUOTE(Redwatch @ Oct 3 2007, 09:03 AM) *

Good story. To be honest, I was a little confused at the beginning but it all became clear soon enough.

Read a few of your storys... its definately something you should pursue



Nice one, thank you.


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Oh isn't he nice? He's so niiiice... and she's nice too!




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QUOTE(Dr. Death @ Oct 3 2007, 09:59 AM) *

I know, he should be a stripper too because I want to fuck him. He's a little sex whore.


Stripper? But I thought you'd find the pinning down and forcibly/violently removing his garments whilst he writhes, screaming in fear at your monster cock, the fun part?
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